“I learned that courage was not the absence of fear, but the triumph over it. The brave man is not he who does not feel afraid, but he who conquers that fear.” Nelson Mandela
On the heels of my PULSE assignment, I had two choices…. I could (attempt to!) go back to my “old life”, or I could have the courage to continue facing my fears. I’d like to think I have the normal fears of your average person – inadequacy, rejection, and the most basic fear of not being true to myself. After experiencing something as intensive as PULSE, it would have been so easy to slide back into my routine, my comfort zone, my safe place. But that’s just the thing about PULSE.. it changes your eyes permanently. My “PULSEspectacles” have focused my eyes, and given my heart the courage to keep pushing through those fears.
It has been over a month since I’ve been back from PULSE, yet still… every single day I am relating my day to day to my PULSE experience. I’ve been trying to avoid submitting my case study because I am still taking it all in my new set of eyes. I am lucky enough to continue working in a volunteering capacity beyond my assignment, all thanks to the amazing support of GSK, my line manager, and ‘my village’ of amazing teammates. I would have regretted never asking the simple question “Can I continue this work?”
Acknowledge your fears, but then push through them. You will NEVER regret the things you try, but you will always wonder…. “what if?”
There are benefits and challenges that have come with re-entry, but there is also this unwavering realization that I am more brave, more competent, and more authentic than I’ve ever been.
As my last blog on my PULSE experience, I welcome any one questioning whether PULSE is for them, to call me, text me, email me, tweet me, fax me… whatever works for you…. I’m happy to help assuage any fears you may have and go on the journey with you.
P.S. My on-going volunteer work will be with Stop Hunger Now which is driven by the vision of a world without hunger. Their mission is to end hunger in our lifetime by providing food and life-changing aid to the world’s most vulnerable and creating a global commitment to mobilize the necessary resources. If you’d like more information about their amazing work, check out their website or just ask me!