The Twilight Zone, Part of my Journey
(Insert Twilight Zone music here!)
I often feel these days like I am in the Twilight Zone. I look around and at times I either feel like a stranger or like I am having an out of body experience. It amazes me how in one week you can go from feeling so accomplished and moved by your work to feeling like a failure. I guess this is all part of stepping out of your comfort zone, taking on projects and realizing not everyone is going to see it through your eyes. So, from here on out…. I have decided this needs to be taken less personally and will be seen as a great learning experience that allowed me to grow, learn more about inner politics (which is not my strength 😉 ) and a deep lesson in leadership. I hope at some point we can all look at the growth of our people through the process and not only a supposed result. I find half the time what do these results really mean? What are we doing? Why are we doing this? Who is interpreting this result and how connected are they? This is when trust gets lost and engagement can make a turn. Currently, we are reading about motivation in our GSK WLI (Women’s Leadership Initiative) Global Book Club, DRiVE by Daniel Pink. If you are not a member of our book club and work at GSK please, check us out…. we would love to have you join for the next book selection in semester 2 of 2015.
Now, in my comfort zone is training some of GSK’s vaccine portfolio! This week we started training one of the brands I will be picking up for 2015. It felt really great to be with our learners and work with one of my esteemed colleagues as we prepare them to be customer facing. Just being able to be in this sacred space of learning is an honor. It is a good reminder of the power of observation. We get so caught up in everything that “needs” to be done that we forget how much can be gained by “going to see”. Value doesn’t have to come from only the “doing”.
I wanted to end this blog with the magic surrounding me at home. My kids went to their middle school formal on Friday evening. Those of you who know me, know my daughter, “the Frank”, (as she may refer to herself) and her firecracker ways. My daughter, Frankie, is very much a tomboy and on most dress up occasions prefers wearing a suit to a dress. Her daily wear consists of shorts with sweatpants, her NY Giants hat and sweatshirt and let’s not forget her beats covering her ears most of the time. So, when she decided she was going to the formal and was wearing a dress well all hell broke loose at my house this week. These are the times when you are an adult and you realize you still really need your mom! As you can imagine trying to help Frankie figure out what she wanted to wear in a sea of dress after dress when this is not something she spends time or energy on at all was an emotional rollercoaster for all of us. This is on top of the shoes, hair etc…. I have to be honest, the suit was much easier! 🙂 Managing the preparations, emotions and logistics brought me back to middle school. In fact, sometimes life situations still feel like I am back in middle school. I always said I wanted to write a book called, “Being an Adult is still like being in the 8th Grade”. It cracks me up because we have these expectations of our kids that at times we don’t even live up to ourselves. But as you can see from the picture, both of our kids looked great and enjoyed the evening. This week may have been filled with some things that in the end, in the big scheme of things, don’t really matter. This Friday evening with my family… now that is priceless!